Saturday, March 20, 2010
It wasnt always easy to accept........
When I first found out I had MS, like I said, I was only 22 years old. I did alittle research on MS but not really enough to truely grasp what it was. Basically, I read enough to scare me to death, and make me really pissed off at God! Keep in mind that I was not a very possitive person! I had a negative outlook on pretty much everything!
So.....for 2 weeks, I stayed angry at God, constantly asking him WHY? Why me? What did I do to make you so angry? I'm only 22 and you have ruin my life!!! I thought you were a loving God? I have to deal with this for the rest of my life.... there is NO cure! Why God? Why do you hate me so? Then it happened!.......
God didnt hate me, he loved me more than ever! I just didnt realize it! God just wanted to make me realize that I NEEDED HIM! There was no longer room for my negative attitude! If I was going to be a negative nelly then I just needed to crawl under a rock and stay there! But, NO! I was only 22 years old and I was not going to give up that easy!!
I accepted my diagnoisis of MS and decided to face it head on! With God's help ofcourse! I was scared and totally uneducated about MS. I started reading everything I could about MS and asking my doctors all kinds of questions. I wanted to know what I was up against. With the help of my family, friends and God, I chose to not let this scary sounding thing get me down! I was to young, I still had a lot to do in my life!!
SO.....I can honestly say that being diagnosed with MS was the best thing that could have ever happened to me! I went from little miss negativity to having a very possitive outlook on life! Its been something I've had to get use to because like with anything, I have my good days and my bad days. But, most of the time I forget that I have MS...but only by the Grace of God!
So.....for 2 weeks, I stayed angry at God, constantly asking him WHY? Why me? What did I do to make you so angry? I'm only 22 and you have ruin my life!!! I thought you were a loving God? I have to deal with this for the rest of my life.... there is NO cure! Why God? Why do you hate me so? Then it happened!.......
God didnt hate me, he loved me more than ever! I just didnt realize it! God just wanted to make me realize that I NEEDED HIM! There was no longer room for my negative attitude! If I was going to be a negative nelly then I just needed to crawl under a rock and stay there! But, NO! I was only 22 years old and I was not going to give up that easy!!
I accepted my diagnoisis of MS and decided to face it head on! With God's help ofcourse! I was scared and totally uneducated about MS. I started reading everything I could about MS and asking my doctors all kinds of questions. I wanted to know what I was up against. With the help of my family, friends and God, I chose to not let this scary sounding thing get me down! I was to young, I still had a lot to do in my life!!
SO.....I can honestly say that being diagnosed with MS was the best thing that could have ever happened to me! I went from little miss negativity to having a very possitive outlook on life! Its been something I've had to get use to because like with anything, I have my good days and my bad days. But, most of the time I forget that I have MS...but only by the Grace of God!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Just so ya know......
I have not had the most perfect life by any means! I was born and raised in Alabama. First few years in Birmingham then to Springville. Im so glad my parents moved us away from Birmingham because it was really going to pot and fast! I hated my parents for the longest time though because I was only 10 when we moved and I didnt understand why I had to leave all my friends! (Thats a story for another day!) I have a younger brother who is in the Marine Corp (hes home.) I have a 7 year old daughter and a 5 year old son. I have two awesome parents that I dont know what I would do without! I have a wonderful boyfriend named Chance and my BFF sister at heart, Kelly. My life has been nothing like I ever thought it would be. I guess thats the way the Lord works though right? Man plans....God laughs! I mean really! I never wanted my life to turn out the way it has, BUT.....I wouldnt change it now for the world! I've been through a lot of tough times, things have happen that I wasnt sure I'd make it through, but I have! I'd like to think that in some way I have learned from all I've been through and all the mistakes I've made and am hopefully a much stronger person now!
I really dont even know where to start! I guess the most life changing thing that happened to me was the day I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclorosis. I was only 22 years old and had NO clue what in the world MS was and what my future would hold! Lucky for me, I have amazing parents and an amazing family who got me through the initial shock of finding out that I had this chronic illness!
I also had to make the choice.....so I decided that I was a woman who had MS, MS did not, and does not have me!
I really dont even know where to start! I guess the most life changing thing that happened to me was the day I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclorosis. I was only 22 years old and had NO clue what in the world MS was and what my future would hold! Lucky for me, I have amazing parents and an amazing family who got me through the initial shock of finding out that I had this chronic illness!
I also had to make the choice.....so I decided that I was a woman who had MS, MS did not, and does not have me!
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